Starting on GameSpot way back in 2006, I started in the blog scene as a means of being more free and open with opinions and feelings. This is one aspect that has been successful in conditioning myself.
From that, I don't particularly like having anything to hide so it's time to bring everyone up-to-speed on where I am.
In late last August I visited the health services provided by the University due to decreasing mood, sporadic and significant mood swings particularly downward, and to verify my health is continuing fine having started living on my own.
Physically I got a clean bill aside from being a bit low in Vitamin D, but mentally, after being bounced around between two MDs, a counsellor, psychiatrist and psychologist, the conclusion has been moderate depression.
Not exactly the most shocking result, all things considered. For the most part, it's been an ongoing issue now for about five years, but never had anything done until now. My last visit to the doctor was about a year-and-a-half ago about fatigue, and all I got there was that I was perfectly fine and to maybe get some exercise.
I guess I don't really have a point. That's just where I am. The psychiatrist recommended SSRI medications, but my aversion was too strong to accept the advice of someone who obviously knew much better about what the best option was. Rather, I merely have weekly sessions through the University's psychological services.
On the plus side, they all seemed confused that there was no effect on my appetite and that there wasn't any weight gain. Apparently that's very common. So at the very least I know that I truly am immune to weight gain.
From that, I don't particularly like having anything to hide so it's time to bring everyone up-to-speed on where I am.
In late last August I visited the health services provided by the University due to decreasing mood, sporadic and significant mood swings particularly downward, and to verify my health is continuing fine having started living on my own.
Physically I got a clean bill aside from being a bit low in Vitamin D, but mentally, after being bounced around between two MDs, a counsellor, psychiatrist and psychologist, the conclusion has been moderate depression.
Not exactly the most shocking result, all things considered. For the most part, it's been an ongoing issue now for about five years, but never had anything done until now. My last visit to the doctor was about a year-and-a-half ago about fatigue, and all I got there was that I was perfectly fine and to maybe get some exercise.
I guess I don't really have a point. That's just where I am. The psychiatrist recommended SSRI medications, but my aversion was too strong to accept the advice of someone who obviously knew much better about what the best option was. Rather, I merely have weekly sessions through the University's psychological services.
On the plus side, they all seemed confused that there was no effect on my appetite and that there wasn't any weight gain. Apparently that's very common. So at the very least I know that I truly am immune to weight gain.
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Therapy will be a big waste of time, trust me, my father is a psychologist. It will drag on for ages and do fuck all good.
You will get more out of talking to us here on the site then you will out of paying for some non-responsive mute who nods his head a lot and asks you ridiculous, useless questions and not actually do anything helpful.
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I'm depressing?!
I thought I go out of my way every day to make people laugh and lighten the mood!?
You're only included because you've lived a life seemingly cursed by gypsies. That is, none of us can touch your level of despair. Uplifting, in a sense, to not be a broken mess, but still, goddamned depressing that these things could happen to someone.
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i'm sorry buddy. i apologise
At least you are trying to do something about it. Keep on trying to over come it in any way and know that we are always here.
I consider Leo to be an inspiration, we can all learn from him.
GG you cant even be bothered to play a video game cause it makes you think. Yes you are the saddest one sometimes. You are gammingeek, you have your own section, we all followed you. Be happy.
Dealing with clinical depression is always tricky, especially in smart people. Who seem to be the ones that get depressed the most, by the way.
There is no clear cut answer for this. Not that I think you were expecting one, mind you. Not everyone benefits from psychologic therapy, and not everyone improves with SSRIs, which, by the way, usually have significant side effects and withdrawal issues.