Throughout my time as an internet denizen, I have tried most of the times to behave in a way somewhat according to my "real life" behavior. I'm pretty respectful of other people's opinions, even if I'm not in agreement with them, and try to approach any given discussion from a conciliatory standpoint. It takes a lot for me to get angry at something/someone, and usually those bursts of anger don't last long. Above all, I have tried to give other people's opinions, thoughts or statements the weight and respect they deserve, especially considering the very limited interaction offered by the venues I usually frequent.
Most of the e-interaction I have nowadays is of a ludic nature, in several levels. I come here to discuss games and other trivial matters of life as a relief from the very serious burden of my professional practice. Because more often than I would wish, I deal with death. I certainly don't need grim discussions after informing someone that her mother or daughter or son is probably going to die before six months, just a few days after they've learned about the results of a lab test; I don't need anger-filled diatribes after pronouncing someone dead on my shift at the ICU, with his relatives around. Because of that, I try to not take things all too seriously around here, and steer clear of more serious, down to earth, matters.
But recently, I have noticed my behavior has changed. I've been posting some things that I wouldn't have just a year ago or two. Embittered opinions, aggressive expletives, demeaning comments. I wonder if that change has happened because of me reaching a comfort zone, and not trying to improve myself as a poster anymore, or if it's because I've let some of the negative attitude that prevails over the internet get to me in a way I didn't expect. Whatever the reason, the result is unacceptable to me, and unfair to the people that interacts with me.
So I sincerely apologize to all of you, especially to the ones I've directly attacked or addressed in the past. Know that I will be taking measures to improve the quality of my contributions day to day. Time will tell if this is a viable solution to me, or if what I really need is some time off.
Gimme a hug!
I feel left out, I haven't been directly attacked.
Consider yourself lucky. He IN-directly attacked me from behind!
Like a valve kind of release for when your brain stops aggregating the pressures of your job?
It probably is. I've been going through a lot of stress during the last days before my vacation started. It's quite likely those short bursts of frantic gaming are my way of letting steam go.